I like to open my blog with some catchy title or interesting tidbit about the Month I’m blogging in. I borrowed this title from the Internet because of the phrase below (as defined by the Pierce County Workforce Development System):
“Forward March” is a command used to move troops in a specific direction with a specific cadence and distance between each step. When we think about what that means in our new way of living and work, each day may seem unclear. However, we know that change is constant and how we stand together to continue this forward movement in agreement and alignment with one another will sustain us over time”.
Well, I’m not part of any troops or movements underway, but the words resonated strongly with me when I think about my new way of living and work. I’m living as a single person focusing on moving in a forward direction as I define my new Normal way of living every single day. Some days the efforts I make add clarity to whether or not I’m heading in the right direction. Other days, not so much. But I do acknowledge and accept the idea of embracing change in order to improve and make myself a better person day-by-day.
I’ve been on this new journey to define and create new normalcy in my life. So far, I’m doing okay. Admittedly, there are days when I spend my time lamenting those days gone by, when life was good. My normal was the best because it included a stable, loving marriage to my BFF Mike! a home filled with love, laughter, family, and a multi-dimensional lifestyle with jobs, church, sports, recreation, friendships, relationships, new goals, vacations, etc.!
Now, my new normal includes some of the same lifestyle like church, new goals and friendships, but on a smaller scale than before. It’s like my “Big Life” that I lived and enjoyed for 40+ years is now my “Big Makeover.” The multi-dimensional aspect is focused around grief and all its various physical and emotional expressions of it.
I still cry several times a week at the thought of Mike and the many fun times, and conversations we shared. I pray out loud and thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful, faithful, patient, loving, husband. After expressions like this, I get back to living the life I’m blessed to have that day, and looking forward to the next day God willing!
I’m doing okay. I’m healing and slowly (day by day) recovering from major spine surgery that was BRUTAL as far as the immediate after surgery shock to my body and nerves that’s still going on today, but not nearly as intense as those first 3 weeks out. God is merciful and God is a healer and I praise HIM all the day long!!!
If you are reading this blog, I invite you to share any experiences you’ve had related to finding help to get back to living your life, and putting that one foot in front of the other to “Forward March” toward your new normal way of living and working without your beloved one. This is a nonjudgmental community space for healing and we would love to hear from you.
You never know how your words might touch someone who is trying to find their way back after the devastating loss of a very best friend and / or dearly beloved spouse, parent, child, grandparent, and special someone in your life. We hope to hear from you soon.
God’s blessings, favor, and love!!
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